Update on life

11-12-2025

Hello everyone, it's been a while since I've given updates about my life on this blog, so I'll take advantage of this free time to write a little. Lately my main occupations have been studying for university exams, and finishing pending projects that I wanted to do this 2025. Regarding the second point, it has really been difficult for me to work on my hobbies, either due to lack of time or sudden changes in plans; I admit that I haven't organized my time very well. Currently, my hobbies involve my YouTube channels (BonBon's UFO where I upload varied content AND BonBon REMIX where I often play videogames), also there's videogame development, and sometimes I like to draw digital art. Usually these hobbies enhance each other because I can take what I create in one and use it in another. For example, I can promote my videogames on the YouTube channel, use my drawing for videos, and other things.

But this year passed way to fast, and I feel like because I was trying to handle so many things, in the end I didn't end up publishing much. And... yeah it's not the end of the world, I can continue working next year. I also don't want to transform EVERYTHING I do into productivity, especially since that's what has ultimately been causing me so much stress. If I force myself to work on so many things without a clear direction, in the end I'll just burn out and I won't want to do anything anymore.

Right now I'm preparing the terrain for a next project related to Neocities, and a videogame that I wish to make public this year. If I just focus on that initial tasks and I don't add anymore goals, maybe everything will be fine.

It wouldn't kill me to go out a little more either; I remember when I lived in Santiago I used to go for walks at least 5 times a week, I could spend hours exploring the city, but now I barely go out when I have classes.

Of course, I exercise every day, but it's not the same if I'm locked in my room like a hermit. Now is where I could say "Oh if only I could hangout with some friends" but it's not like I propose many plans.

Finally, I'd like to vent a little about how I've been feeling lately regarding my gender identity, because as you know, I'm trans and I identify as a woman. AND GOD LORD SAVE ME, BECAUSE THE LAST MONTHS HAVE BEEN LIKE A ROALLER COASTER. Starting with the good part, I've recently been able to dedicate more time to my appearance; getting ready a little before going out really boosts my confidence, AND HEY there have been times when people even treat me like a girl, which makes me very happy. But in the other side... FUCK IT MAN, that goddamn dysphoria attacks me whenever it wants and wherever it wants. Sometimes I'm like really chill and happy... and then BAM! It grabs me from the neck and throws me to the floor and then it start kicking me then it grabs me again and throws me and kicks me and grab me and-

Hmmm... yeah I'm not that inspired right now. Talking about dysphoria, I wouldn't mind doing HRT, it would be really neat actually. Sadly that just will be an option in like 3 more years (o ^ o).

Soooo that's all I have to say right now. Finally, I think I'd like to upload videogame reviews on this blog, taking advantage of the fact that I've been completing several titles lately, that would be really cool. Bye bye!